KICKSTARTS

Photobucket down for 2 days but this is a chill tune: Example - Kickstarts (Afrojack Remix). I want summer! I've already got my ironic hipster crop tops waiting in the closet! And a lighter with bottle opener..it's no regural lighter! But now I'm just dreaming about Alaia x H&M collaboration though it's probably not going to happen...that's alright though, to avoid all the heartattacks.

THE CROSS SHOULD BE UPSIDE DOWN...LIKE ICE CUBES IN A CHOCOLATE MOUSSE

BYE BYE WINTER!

Top 10 of this Spring in no particular order

Fantastic Man/ The Gentlewoman
Caribou's album Swim
DINOSAURUXIA's single Safe
Matias Aguayo in Finland 22.5
The Last Magazine
Sun
You
Lipstick
Happiness as a gun
This line: It don't matter, you don't have to be liking me now, I'm going to leave you right where you stand, you just mad, you'll never be as nice as I am...

Photo: me by Emilia Lagk

LIFE STEALS EVERYTHING

LIFE STEALS EVERYTHING I-IV FINISHED! AND ALMOST UNTIL SUDDENLY, LAST WEEKEND TOO! YAY! For a while I thought today was some kind of International Failing Day....well guess what, it was! I wonder if I could take a semester in cutting with carpet knife and the usage of spray glue somewhere... everything looks like shit. Fuck. Until then, I'm going to keep a small break from looking like an art student/hipster man with long hair and ironic glasses and regain my fashion bloggerness. Except I think this look is better. I was also wearing grandma's old loafers and my favorite brown jacket to keep it real. Don't feel like buying any Miu Miu inspired tops from Gina Tricot because the production process is ugly but Finnish small niche labels stuff produced in Italy is not! So suggest you switch to that! And while you're on it, try slow food veganism. Mmm potatoes and carrots forever. All that daily sushi and chicken pasta is e a s y ! Not in a good way! Think about it!

WHEN IT COME TO BEEF, HE DON'T WANT TO DO NOTHING BUT COOK

CAMERON SMITH ...LOVE IT.

Going to finish my work for art academy tomorrow...just some photographs of Lauri (they are easy...because he's a great subject, that's all what matters to me) and a video and a painting that's pretty epic ...well it just says THIS ALL REALLY HAPPENS. I don't know...should've applied to more schools everywhere because I'm not feeling 100% confident now. My mom was mouthing me off saying some people are already working in my age right when I was in middle of all this art stuff. But then again she might have cancer (fuck) so I get it.

"..and Jennifer Holliday sang And I'm Telling You I'm Not Going and that was the day that I decided that this is who I am"

Note to self: listen less, no, fuck, more Morrissey.
There's going to be summer....this summer...when my mom kicks me out.
Thought it was one of those talks, but she keeps repeating it daily.
You overheard her talking to her boss "No, I'm saying MAYBE, MAYBE I'm taking paid vacation that day".
She's talking about your graduation day.
Thanks mom.
Your stepdad's already shown up beaten to pick up his stuff.
"I fell..."
You found out your biological dad's name by accident.
And a letter.. dated 19 years back.
"I am not proud of myself..."

Oh why oh why I never had the supporting, middle class family who'd pay for a macbook and a yearly weekend vacations in Milan or Paris or London and Canon EOS D400 or fancy phones...

I don't know if it would've been any use though, I never believe anyone anyway.
"You're stylish, you're talented.."
Fuck that when I always think what I could be if I had this and that and I'm talking about normal stuff my friends take for granted.
And then I think that I shouldn't be thinking about that because I've done nothing to achieve anything, never even worked in Mickey D's or anything, I shouldn't be complaining.
"But hey, everyone has to do those jobs you know..."
FUCK THAT WHY CAN'T I BE ONE OF THOSE PERSONS WHOSE JOB OPPORTUNITIES FALL TO THEIR LAPS & WHO HAVE SUPPORTIVE MIDDLE CLASS FAMILIES & GODDAMN MACBOOK & 20 SKATER GUYS NUMBERS SAVED TO THEIR PHONES.
Whatever.
I know it's my fault cause I never did savings anyway.
I'll let you know when years of buying fashion magazines pays off.
Might be a long wait so get comfortable.

My stepdad left behind three packs of oil paint.

My friend said the other night, oh, I bet when guys wake up in the morning next to you and you have no glasses on and they're like, wow, who's this beautiful girl. Well I thought about this theory...and sorry my friend, I guess I've been there, done that & never got the call back & they just found another me without glasses (& called back to me after dumped...classy).


I'm not going to write sorry that you stumbled here to read this because gosh if there's something I hate in other people it's their constant apologizing of themselves. Seriously, fuck you you're talented and beautiful and cool and whatever you need to be, why do you want to make yourself and me and others feel like shit every time? Do you think that's going to take you anywhere? Do you think it's actually comfortable for others? Do you think they expect a fucking Picasso every time you show them something? Do you ever think about that they are going to die too? Do you think it's going to make you seem "humble"? Do you ever think that it's annoying? Do you ever think people would actually love to see your work instead of a broken record of apologies? Quit! They would love to say you're brilliant without it being a response to "I'm shit, this is nothing" for once!

Though couple of next months are looking "rough" (uh I live in FINLAND, I'm not really in serious trouble! None of us are! Well, actually we are with this goverment..) for me, I am really looking forward to future.
Because it's going to get better from this whatever happens!
Because I know I'm getting over this too!
Always have!
You know when I was 15 I was thrown yoghurt over me by bullies in a train!
No guy looked at me!
Bam three years later I had guys stalking me on FB!
Now people call me "fashionable", "inspiring" and "original" instead of "nightmare"!
Things DO change!
Except extreme poverty. That bothers me.

Ps. when I marry rich/drop out of college & ground some multi-billion business, here here's how I'm going to spend it: 1. Buy all the hipster record stores on the planet (if they still exist, the wait might be long in this case too) 2. Buy a skating tournament 3. Make an irrestible offer to Helmut Lang to come back to fashion and design exclusively for me 4. Buy Apple Inc

That's pretty much all! Hope Joan Rivers would be satisfied!

THE MOON'S MY TEACHER

Oh,
It's always fun to be home alone drunk and listen to Hot Chip's cover of She Wolf.
Uhm...

I want to put on shitloads of make-up and curl my hair and go out dancing.
Only problem is I've got only mascara and powder and no curlers and no one has hollered me up.
I guess home, wine, art-making (oh my god how stupid does that sound) and architecture programs it is...

It's alright.
Eternal youth coming soon.
(In Didot & 72 & cursive, better recognize or you'd have no chance to be my bf, haha!)

STOP PRETENDING THAT YOU'RE STILL BREATHING

90s Jean Paul Gaultier = bit like Ann Sofie Back and Maison Martin Margiela, but better. Tsk tsk...oh and I'm not sourcing any inspiration of course, haha! Funny how Christy has the same pose in the photos.

Apprently Christy Turlington cures any kind of creative block there is. Oh my god I think I want to use only pictures of her for one of my application assingment, where I have to do 10 pages of inspiration book.

OH MY GOD I SERIOUSLY LOVE HER AND THE 90s.
I LOVE THE FILM 4:30,
LONELINESS + PARENTS NOT BEING THERE = MY LIFE.
I STILL LOVE MY 90s VOGUES I SCORED FOR 20 CENTS EACH.
THEY HAVE LIKE AZZEDINE ALAIA DRESSES ON EVERY OTHER PAGE.
I LOVE BACK ISSUES OF THE PURPLE JOURNAL.
LIFE HAS MEANING AGAIN.
MANGO CHILI TEA.
"I THINK YOU HAVE TOO MANY SHOES"... SHUT UP!

DO YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN????

I think I'm gonna start yoga.

STEALING HEARTS WAS YOUR PASTIME

Pictures Sanna Lehto

Listening to diva house has increased my life quality! Even today when I was too faded to go to Korjaamo & sell DINOSAURUXIA's EPs. But next week I'll be up for that, when 16.4 they play at Belly so lets do it!

These pictures were taken couple of weeks ago when it started to get sunny and I wanted to play fashion dress up. For this outfit I was inspired by Dries Van Noten of course! Gotta try crazy prints once in a while. I love this wool blazer thingie and suspect that everyone is going crazy for pinstripes by fall, since Wang did it for his fall and everything. So. Pinstripes. Fall. Better recognize.

Things I'm into:

SUN & SPRING
FUR/SHEARLING/FAUX-FUR BAGS
FRENCH FILMS WHERE THEY SOLVE CRAZY CRIMES CHILLING AT THE ALPS
VINCENT CASSEL
SKETCHING
TV SHOWS ABOUT ITALY'S COUNTRYSIDE

yeah there's not much I'm into when I'm tired....cake.....but special mention to:

DLAUREN FLAX&SIA - YOU'VE CHANGED and all the 200 remixes of it, my favorite is Drlkt Freddie's with crazy horns. Pretty good.

BLACK COFFEE

Getting turned down by swedes/finnswedes always makes me die little bit inside!! That's all. I had a fun night + woke up at my friends apartment where she has the cooolest stuff! Today WE ARE ALL DRAWING OK! And catching Dinosauruxia + Villa Nah at Korjaamo tonight!

Here is Reija's amazing stuff:

1. Jil Sander shoes (that are actually for sale if you're intrested! Size 38)
2. BLESS shoes
3. Bag she made from old leather jacket, I looove it!
4. Ann Sofie Back bag
5. THE NEW GORILLA MAG IS OUT! Hmm I'm wearing same kind of shirt as in the cover!

drawdrawdraw

I play sports...no I don't, what the fuck?

I am at school, finishing my last courses. Yay! Here is a fur bag I made for my textile diploma. It's hand-sewn together from fur pieces my grandpa shot decades ago. My theme had something to do with ecology and I decided organic cotton babydoll dress died with blueberry is for someone else, this is what I would wear. The thing is that companies should today not produce & market their eco-savy products thinking about one huge mass who would buy them, because there are also different consumer groups in people who are intrested of the condition of this planet. Sooo. This one is for people like me, semi-vegans who hate faux-leather and are against fur industry but love everything from Rick Owen's fur line...

Here's my sad, tired & flashy face...off to read art history stuff. I love my medieval crop top. I don't love drawing dresses for applications cause I can't draw. Considering to send only sad flipbooks & photographs of sad faces to art academy..

WHY DON'T WE MAKE IT RAIN LIKE WE USED TO

Sooo....how did I miss that Damir Doma has ORGANIC COTTON basics diffusion line out (both men & womens)?! And the prices are VERY reasonable?! Totally feeling this & philosophy behind it. The line is titled SILENT.

“Today as the world is changing in ways still difficult to understand, values such as luxury are evolving too. ‘Classic’ luxury is still often represented by expensive, shiny or loud brands or products. However, a new type of ‘valuable goods’ is emerging: silence, time and peace of mind are becoming rarer- and thus more precious as the environment and the global system seems more and more fragile, and we become more and more interconnected,” - Damir Doma.

Pictures from Dazed. You can get the mens from Oki-ni. The scarf & wallets & t-shirts are on my wishlist. For once a diffusion/basics line I can fully co-sign! This makes me write CVs!

Ps. I've been listening to 90s music and J Dilla the whole day...

MAKING TIME FOR AIR, BREATHING IN

Me by Helen Korpak!

I am not depressed, I just like to listen to James Yuill.
There's just one thing I love more right now...
Beige suede wedges.
But they're not mine, not mine yet so it doesn't count.
Life's like that you know.

Luckily, you can't always get what you want, but you can get what you need...
And James Yuill is kinda upbeat if you think about it.

I finally watched Leon over friends house!
Well it was amazing of course.
And wasn't it Heikki Salonen who was inspired by it for his Fall collection?
Watched lot of other films lately too...Remember Me (R.PATZZZZ LOVE), Stepford Wives, In a Lonely Place and tv film of Coco Chanel. Got around reading To Kill a Mockingbird too and D.H Lawrences novels...don't know.

Things I'm into right now:

Buttoned up black shirts. My two favorites are the snake-patterned in the last post and a minimalistic Vuokko one.

Architecture shows on TV. No kidding. It's the art history reading kicking in.

The xx / Notorius BIG mashups. It's all about the crystalbeths.

The fact that yesterday in one day I noticed dried blood on my hand without noticing where the cut came, passerbys asking if we were OK when I was modeling for Sanna and cried over Robert Pattison.

The random wrap in my last post.

You cause you're reading this!

MIND READER

Day started like this:
8.50
MOM: Uhm why are you sleeping on the couch?
ME: I don't know....

and then I went to North-Espoo!

Ps.
When you're dead tired, having a coffee and expensive chocolate at La Torrefazione and then trying out a new perfume is like listening to Justin Bieber: you're like, dude can't possibly cheer me up AGAIN! Next thing you know you're all BABY BABY BABYYY taking a random walk around slushy streets and seeing hot fashionistas and hipster dudes left right and buying tofu like you've never taken a walk, seen hot people or ate tofu before. OK bottom line, it's addictive and works like a charm every time.